Leap of FaithChapter(s):
Slight angst, fluff, AU-ishRating:
No plot? :/Pairing:
Real people, real circumstances, fake stories.Summary: But the world was calling to Kai, and Aoi knew he couldn’t say no.Comment:
*grumbles*. BGM is Layag
(Sail) by Up dharma Down
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His bags had already been packed; the two suitcases occupying nothing but a small spot outside, in the corner of the living room. Suddenly the bedroom was filled with the scent of his cologne, almost too strong for the nose, but he couldn’t help but spray it all over himself nervously. It was a small enough action, but it gave him at least a few minutes to stay glued on the floor, not having to leave right away. If he could he’d spray cologne on himself all day if that meant another day in this apartment, in this bedroom that they shared.
He threw a look over to the bed, still messy from last night’s slumber. But he hadn’t slept a wink at all, even though Aoi’s warm weight rested on his chest the whole night. His thoughts were broken by the soft voice that hollered from outside.
“Kai, you’re going to be late.”
All Aoi could do was to watch Kai, support him whenever he could, and urge him to do the right thing even if that meant that Kai would have to leave his side. Today’s departure was not only hard for Kai, but for Aoi as well, being the one left waiting here with everything that would remind him of what they have. And wouldn’t that be unkind, being surrounded by everything that he wanted but couldn’t hold, couldn’t have?
But the world was calling to Kai, and Aoi knew he couldn’t say no. Besides, who was he to keep Kai from the world?
Kai knew there’s no escaping now when his legs made their way to the door and exited the bedroom. His head was cast down and he couldn’t even look up to Aoi to at least give him a reassuring smile that he was going to be alright. Why should he, when he himself couldn’t be reassured that he’d really be alright?
The soft padding of footsteps coming his way and the gentle hand on his cheek wiped off the sulking expression off his face. “It’s only for three months,” Aoi’s words rung in his ears and once more Kai’s heart sunk. Three months was far too long.
“It’s far too long,” he repeated out in a hushed tone, still hesitant to look up the older man.
“Let’s go,” Aoi finally said, pulling away from Kai before his mind flips and decides not to let him go.
The ride to the airport was silent, too silent that he couldn’t even hear the taxi’s engine. Kai refused to look at Aoi’s face for the remainder of the ride; he knew his monsters were wrong to say that Aoi was going to be gone if he didn’t look because he still felt the older’s comforting hand on his knee.
His eyes were then fixed outside the window where everything was a tad darker than normal. The skies were of an eerie shade of gray and the trees that were once so bright with life now lanky and unsightly, the leaves barely hanging at the branches. What a depressing day to go, Kai thought, and the monsters were back, telling him how each day would be like this if he left Aoi’s side. Kai brushed the thought aside and stopped focusing on the seemingly dead things. So he directed his eyes to the people and noticed how everybody was clad in thick, comfortable clothing but didn’t seem comfortable enough that they still had to hide in another person’s arms.
Falling in love was such a wonderful feeling, but in his and Aoi’s lives, that was a luxury they can’t indulge in too much.
Finally the cab stopped and the huge airport building loomed into Kai’s vision. He couldn’t help but grimace slightly, wishing that he really didn’t have to go. He planted his hand against the taxi couch harder until he felt Aoi tug on them with a small, apologetic smile on his face. With a sigh, Kai curled his hands into a fist and pushed himself off the cab.
The area was nearly deserted and Kai wished more people were there so that saying goodbye would be a little easier. But with almost no people around, he knew that in some way or another he’d give himself an opportunity to embarrass himself in front of Aoi. Like crying for example.
He felt his eyes start to water but Aoi planted his big hands on the sides of his face, his thumb rubbing circles under and at the corner of his eyes. “Don’t cry okay?” Aoi started in a gentle tone, “You’re only going to be gone for three months. No need to be dramatic, Kai-chan.”
Kai started to sniffle but the way Aoi massaged his eyes kept him from spilling any tears. “I’m gonna miss you,” he stated silently, as he pulled the older for an embrace.
“You won’t,” he answered as quietly, pulling Kai as well and stroking through his soft hair. “I’ll call you every day and pester you over the internet too.”
Aoi broke his hold on the younger and went over to get his luggage from the cab’s compartment before going back to his spot in front of Kai. Smiling, he patted the top of Kai’s head lovingly. “You’re gonna be fine. When you get back, we’re gonna watch the cherry blossoms together, alright?”
Kai opened his mouth to agree, but instead something else came out. “I love you, Aoi.”
The smile faded from Aoi’s lips. “I know.” He placed a hand over Kai’s cheek again. “I love you too.”
With that Aoi leaned close to Kai’s face and pressed his lips against his, and although the lip piercing was brushing quite painfully against his skin, Kai didn’t complain. Instead he closed his eyes, letting Aoi dominate the kiss unlike the usual.
Aoi was the one to pull back first and saw how flushed Kai had become after the kiss. He let out a small, good-natured laugh and squeezed the younger’s cheek gently. “You need to go. You’re gonna be late for your flight.”
Kai then gathered his things and gave Aoi one last peck on the lips before turning on his heels, afraid that if he stayed any longer he wouldn’t be able to release his hold on Aoi. Better go while he still had the will and strength to.
After all, it would already be spring when he gets back. That was something to look forward to.