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Soul Searching - Aoi/Yune (1/1) 
Apr 27 09
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Title: Soul Searching
Chapter(s): 1/1
Author: xxshamisen
Genre: Romance
Rating: G
Warnings: None
Pairing: Aoi/Yune, hinted Aoi/Kai
Disclaimer: Real people, real circumstances, fake stories.
Summary: There would always be that point in your life where you’d have to spread your wings and fly, and that point had already come for Yune.
Comment: LOLWUT. xD More of my thoughts here.





The sound of footsteps starting to quiet down was signal that their three other band mates had already left the room, and that it was only him and Yune inside. Aoi didn’t break his gaze from outside the window until he felt the couch shift a bit. He willed himself to just observe the scenery for a bit more (not just yet, please) but Yune scooted closer and placed a hand in his knee, and there was nothing he wanted to do more but melt.

“Hey, look at me,” came the calm voice, and Aoi finally turned.

“Do you really have to go?” The question was finally thrown, and Aoi could see how Yune’s look turned from composed to sombre. Yune thought Aoi understood his reasons. Aoi thought he did too, and perhaps this was just selfishness taking over. It wouldn’t be fair to say that Aoi loved Yune more than Yune loved him, because that was a scathing lie. It was just hard to admit that there were far stronger things than the bond that they had, but it was the truth. There was really no need for any of them to dismiss that fact – the both of them are tough and someday, hopefully, they’d understand the meaning to all of these.

But just this once, Aoi wanted to cover his ears and close his eyes.

Yune’s comforting hand on Aoi’s knee was gone, but then intertwined with his calloused fingers. Thinking that Aoi looked like he was about to cry, Yune drew a smile on his face. Aoi sniffled a bit and the smile on the drummer’s lips extended to a small laugh, at least breaking the heavy air around them. Aoi laughed with him too.

Eventually the laughter died down and they were back to their original expressions – Yune being silent and cool while Aoi, silently pleading. Truth was, Yune found it hard, so hard to look into Aoi’s eyes, because the longer he stared into them the more his will to go faltered. But he needed to go, he needed to grow, and while he didn’t want to say that Aoi was one of the reasons why he couldn’t (he’d just deny that anyway), that was the case. There would always be that point in your life where you’d have to spread your wings and fly, and that point had already come for Yune. The band was young and still undiscovered anyway, and there wouldn’t be any problems if he took off at this moment. He did wish them the best, though.

With a small sigh passing his lips, Yune loosened his grip on the other man’s hand and Aoi knew that this was finally it. Don’t cry, baby please don’t cry, he read that from Yune’s eyes, and resolved himself not to shed any tears. If he wasn’t allowed to cry then he would just have to give Yune the tightest embrace he could give, in it thrown all his frustrations, confusions, care, and so much love. The tingly feeling in his eyes was hard to battle but Aoi won at least, for the price of a bruised lower lip. Finally they let go of each other.

“Just promise me… promise us you’ll find somebody to replace your position,” Aoi quietly said, cupping the other man’s cheek.

Yune nodded silently and brushed the stray hairs in front of Aoi’s face. He then leaned forward, giving Aoi’s plump lips the sweetest, softest, gentlest kiss he could ever give. Please be strong for me too, baby.

Aoi heeded Yune’s request. But once the couch shifted again and the door was closed, he knew he wouldn’t see that man that he loved ever again.










“Aoi!”

Aoi stopped in his tracks, waiting for the owner of that voice to come closer, curious as to what message he was to bring.

“Hey Aoi, I think we got a new drummer now! Ruki said there was this guy he knew from somewhere, and he’s interested to fill the drummer position. But you know I think it’s actually Yune who found the dude since they were acquainted too, he certainly knows how to keep a promise, huh? Even if he isn’t keeping touch with us anymore he still…”

As Reita continued talking, Aoi just listened to him silently, with a small smile spreading onto those pierced lips.
Comments 
Apr 27 09 (UTC)
awww cute.
Apr 27 09 (UTC)
Thanks! :3
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Apr 27 09 (UTC)
Ahahaha~ *blush* Thanks for reading and mem'ing, dear. ^^
Apr 27 09 (UTC)
I know that if I see your user-name it means fluffy sweet dreams material... thank you!

alright, I don't go to bed yet, it's too early but I will definately remember this!
Apr 27 09 (UTC)
MISSION ACCOMPLISHED. I srsly love delivering fluff for the masses. ♥

Thanks for reading, ne~ ^^
Apr 27 09 (UTC)
Yune is slowly creeping into your stories :) I liked this, you putting a spin on things, giving the reasons he felt he had to go, but still caring for the band in some way, wishing them all the best. Relationship itself was touching, Yune seemed like the stronger one, Aoi the weaker one, although I would like to think that changed in the end and that Yune leaving made Aoi stronger too, made him the person he is today.
Apr 27 09 (UTC)
Though I would seriously like to think that Aoi's the seme and Yune is the uke. I'm going by the height rule on this one, since apparently Yune is smaller than Ruki, LOL.

I really don't know why I have this strange liking to writing Yune. It's hard because I wanna write him too, but can't because I dun wanna have to make his personality up. >_<;;

Thanks for reading, and I hope you don't mind me adding you as a friend! ♥
Apr 27 09 (UTC)
Ha, ha, ha. Yes, I fail at online laughing. I don't mind you adding me, it means I've done something good :)

Hmm, seme and uke. Is it the case here? It is just that Yune really seemed like a stronger personality here and Aoi lets face it little teary eyed (bless his poor little soul). But seme and uke to me are just positions in bed, that doesn't have to reflect on their personalities too. Taking about height and age, Ruki usually makes a really badass seme when people write him as one. But that is Ruki, I'm not sure about Yune. He is a mystery after all. About writing him, there is no other way for you to write him but really make up his personality. You can look at his photos and try to get some clues of him (I don't know if it would actually work :)) but other than that, there is no helping it. Still, I've read your additional note after posting my comment. I'm not sure if you are the first one who wrote Yune, maybe they are some fics in the archives, but I think you are the only one (for now?) who does him some justice. Personally I never know what to think of him, he kind of creeps me out a bit, just because we don't really know anything about him. I don't know where I got my first impression from, but I'm definitely starting to be more open minded about him now. What can I say, fics influence me :)))
Apr 27 09 (UTC)
Actually, yes. I only look at it as the usual bed positions xDD

Haha, well I found out I'm not the first to write Yune, but I haven't found anybody who wrote Aoi/Yune already. Which I find quite odd for some reason. >>;;

Maybe it's because you've seen the crap pictures of him. You should see him with long hair and also as Dekith when he was still in Artia (never mind Aoi, really). ^^
Apr 27 09 (UTC)
Oh, right I forgot about Aoi/Yune as a pairing, yes it is odd that nobody wrote anything about that. I mean they were former bandmates after all, it is kind of a given. I've seen that picture of Yune in your note, it was a new one for me (I've seen a group photo but not the Yune solo), but I find it amusing that the photo is named uruha14. I've also seen his old Gazette pictures, he looks tiny and brown (I mean the hair) in those, but there are the ones of him with the blond hair too. I like those, he looks really girly and both him and Uruha look really nice. Kind of have the similar thing going. I only know Artia photos with Aoi, red haired and in a net :))) I don't know of any photos of Yune from that period.
Apr 27 09 (UTC)
I KNOW. D: I was fooled for months that THAT's actually Uruha until I went wait, this isn't Uruha, and removed him from my Uru folder. >>;;

I think he looks really nice when he was still in Artia as Dekith. Pics of him looking nice, yay: 001
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Apr 27 09 (UTC)
Yes, the last two are the ones I was talking about. I really like him in those. He looks kind of sharp as Dekith, don't know how to explain it, but he has some sharp facial features, Aoi on the other hand looks like an middle aged woman *facepalm* Oh, and look a photo of Reita's nose I didn't have! Thanks :)
Apr 28 09 (UTC)
awwwwww, so bittersweet.
thanks for writing it and sharing it :)
Apr 28 09 (UTC)
Thank you for reading, dear! ^^
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